Haha.. Really long time no see!! hmm.. seriously, I think I'm not a good blogger, next time I sure cant blog to earn a living.. haha.. Cos' I am too LAZY!!
Haiz.. I'm now slogging my life out to complete my assignments, before I can go back to Singapore for my winter break!! boohoo... I have 4 assignments to do! 要我的命啊！！But never mind, I'm going to Taiwan on 28 June!! woohoo!! So like all parents will say to their children, I'm telling myself "if you want something, you gonna work hard for it!" okay! I will work hard and finish my assignments asap!! of cos with high standards la!
Was listening to Chris Brown's song "With You", and I fell in love with it!! Aww.. it's such a lovely song.. How I wish my bf (I don't have one now..) will sing to me.. Love the first verse of the song.."I need you boo, I got to see you boo..." Boo, I'm guessing.. is a slang commonly used by the Africa American to call their girlfriends.. How sweet! But, I use 'boo' to scare ppl, as in, you-know-what-I'm-talking-about.. haha..
okie dokie.. I think I need to stop here now.. got to resume my assignments.. btw, its late here now.. 3:10am.. phew.. this is totally crazy.. my dad sure kills me if I stay up this late in Singapore. haha!!
Tata! nighty nighty!!
Friday, June 6, 2008
Saturday, August 18, 2007
14 August 2007
Last Tuesday at 5.45am (Australia time).. i received a call from a Private number.. it was my mum.. she sounded very calm, but i think she tried to sound that way.. i was deeply asleep, so when i answered the call, i said in a very very sleepy voice, "yes?? 是谁？（who is this?)" i knew it was my mum because numbers from Singapore will be revealed as Private number.. then, my mum replied in Mandarin, "Siying ah.. ah gong (grandpa) just passed away.. ah gong is gone le..............."
I am telling you this, when i watch dramas with scenes showing people receiving news that their loved ones or close ones are dead, i often think that their expressions were really exaggerating.. but i'm saying this now.. they are not.. my eyes went big and my mind was spinning when i heard the news.. i could not cry for a minute, becos i was too shocked.. few days before his departure, my mum just gave me a call to say that my ah gong had been discharged from the hospital. so naturally, i thought ah gong was getting well, then i said "good! that's very good!! but Ma, you still have to monitor his condition.." call mi superstitious or whatever, i believe in this chinese idiom.. 回光返照, meaning when a person who has been ill for a long time, suddenly gets well, but there is an underlying reason for it.. because he/ she is leaving the mortal world soon... i hate to admit this, but i really thought this way before i came back to Adelaide.. i'm not cursing my ah gong, but i have to believe that 95% of this idiom is true.. (if not, why the existence of this idiom?)
so my mum had to hang up because she was unable to go on and explain to me.. (she was crying...) we hung up, and i was shocked.. really shocked.. i wasn't close to my ah gong since young, because my mum seldom brought me back to visit them.. until 3 years ago, i started to visit them more frequently.. partially because i could not understand the dialect (i.e. FooChow.. completely different from Hokkien..) but sometimes my mum can still translate the language for me.. and it was recently that i started to visit them myself when my mum was away in Tibet, i bought my ah gong drinks, mainly he was lactose intolerant and could not swallow solid foods.. being an Occupational Therapy student, i thought maybe i could help my ah gong be independent in his daily activities again.. i even tell myself i will care for my ah gong when i graduate in 2 years' time.. and i will work in an aged care facility in the future..
shortly after the call, i called my brother's mobile.. my brother passed the phone to my mum, who was already crying so hard that i could not understand what she said.. my ah ma (grandma) was crying as well.. the impact was really hard and tough.. i learned about grieving during lessons and now, i really understand the meaning of it myself.. it was hard.. unbelievable.. i could not sleep anymore, so i woke up, bathed, and went out to have breakfast.. life still goes on for me in Adelaide, cause' i don't want too many people to know about this matter (except for my close friends here). when Yen woke up, i felt i had to tell her, so i broke the news to her (trying to sound normal), but seconds after, my voice was gagging and tears flowed down uncontrollably.. i really can't concentrate in class that day, when i met my another friend for lunch, i broke down in front of them too..
i realised that, the more i recalled what my ah ma told me over the phone, the harder i cried.. my ah ma told mi as she cried " ah gong is gone, gone.. but Siying, don't worry, ah gong will understand why you cannot come back.. so you have to study hard, and get good results when you come back to Singapore.. okay?"
i could not apply for compassionate leave, as it will only hinder my studies and placement.. so i have to study harder, hoping that this semester will pass by faster, sooner, then i will be heading home end of this year.. i can't imagine the impact is acting so hard on me.. though i wasn't that close to him.. he has so many grandchildren, around 13 of them.. i am the second one and the youngest one is only 2-3 years old.. he was a soldier in World War 2.. forced to fight with the Japanese, i think so.. cause' he was telling me and the therapists about his past, and he was showing off his Japanese during the rehabilitation session.. my ah gong was funny sometimes, but he can be very stern at times too..
whenever i hear this Hokkien song, 家后 by 江蕙, i will cry, thinking about my ah gong.. the lyrics talk about how the wife vowed to stay by her husband until death do them apart.. it's a very nice song, touching and loving.. maybe those who can understand the dialect, you may want to find the song and listen to it..
when there is birth, there will be death.. it's all part and parcel of life.. we have to learn to accept this cycle.. ah gong, may you rest in peace.. i will miss you de..
I am telling you this, when i watch dramas with scenes showing people receiving news that their loved ones or close ones are dead, i often think that their expressions were really exaggerating.. but i'm saying this now.. they are not.. my eyes went big and my mind was spinning when i heard the news.. i could not cry for a minute, becos i was too shocked.. few days before his departure, my mum just gave me a call to say that my ah gong had been discharged from the hospital. so naturally, i thought ah gong was getting well, then i said "good! that's very good!! but Ma, you still have to monitor his condition.." call mi superstitious or whatever, i believe in this chinese idiom.. 回光返照, meaning when a person who has been ill for a long time, suddenly gets well, but there is an underlying reason for it.. because he/ she is leaving the mortal world soon... i hate to admit this, but i really thought this way before i came back to Adelaide.. i'm not cursing my ah gong, but i have to believe that 95% of this idiom is true.. (if not, why the existence of this idiom?)
so my mum had to hang up because she was unable to go on and explain to me.. (she was crying...) we hung up, and i was shocked.. really shocked.. i wasn't close to my ah gong since young, because my mum seldom brought me back to visit them.. until 3 years ago, i started to visit them more frequently.. partially because i could not understand the dialect (i.e. FooChow.. completely different from Hokkien..) but sometimes my mum can still translate the language for me.. and it was recently that i started to visit them myself when my mum was away in Tibet, i bought my ah gong drinks, mainly he was lactose intolerant and could not swallow solid foods.. being an Occupational Therapy student, i thought maybe i could help my ah gong be independent in his daily activities again.. i even tell myself i will care for my ah gong when i graduate in 2 years' time.. and i will work in an aged care facility in the future..
shortly after the call, i called my brother's mobile.. my brother passed the phone to my mum, who was already crying so hard that i could not understand what she said.. my ah ma (grandma) was crying as well.. the impact was really hard and tough.. i learned about grieving during lessons and now, i really understand the meaning of it myself.. it was hard.. unbelievable.. i could not sleep anymore, so i woke up, bathed, and went out to have breakfast.. life still goes on for me in Adelaide, cause' i don't want too many people to know about this matter (except for my close friends here). when Yen woke up, i felt i had to tell her, so i broke the news to her (trying to sound normal), but seconds after, my voice was gagging and tears flowed down uncontrollably.. i really can't concentrate in class that day, when i met my another friend for lunch, i broke down in front of them too..
i realised that, the more i recalled what my ah ma told me over the phone, the harder i cried.. my ah ma told mi as she cried " ah gong is gone, gone.. but Siying, don't worry, ah gong will understand why you cannot come back.. so you have to study hard, and get good results when you come back to Singapore.. okay?"
i could not apply for compassionate leave, as it will only hinder my studies and placement.. so i have to study harder, hoping that this semester will pass by faster, sooner, then i will be heading home end of this year.. i can't imagine the impact is acting so hard on me.. though i wasn't that close to him.. he has so many grandchildren, around 13 of them.. i am the second one and the youngest one is only 2-3 years old.. he was a soldier in World War 2.. forced to fight with the Japanese, i think so.. cause' he was telling me and the therapists about his past, and he was showing off his Japanese during the rehabilitation session.. my ah gong was funny sometimes, but he can be very stern at times too..
whenever i hear this Hokkien song, 家后 by 江蕙, i will cry, thinking about my ah gong.. the lyrics talk about how the wife vowed to stay by her husband until death do them apart.. it's a very nice song, touching and loving.. maybe those who can understand the dialect, you may want to find the song and listen to it..
when there is birth, there will be death.. it's all part and parcel of life.. we have to learn to accept this cycle.. ah gong, may you rest in peace.. i will miss you de..
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Happy August!!
Happy August!!
I hope everybody had enjoyed their very 1st day of the new month, its been a long time since i last update my blog.. so my resolution for the month of August is to, make sure i update my blog everyday!! *cross my fingers* heee..
hmm.. i had an adventurous day today.. because i have a placement every Wednesday (which is far far far away from my house).. so here i go..
i'm supposed to catch the train at Adelaide railway station at 7:26am, which will bring mi to Brighton railway station where i will meet my colleague who will fetch mi to the preschool. who knows, i miss the train!! damn it!! missing the train would mean that i will be late for the placement!! worse still, i don't have my colleague's phone number and i can't contact anyone at all, not even the preschool!! jit bai really si liao.. (more to come..)
so i have to wait for the 7:54am train lo.. then, it was delayed!! wa lao!! die lo.. really die lo.. ok.. so the train was delayed for 5 mins.. i boarded the train and sat through the journey until Brighton railway station.. (i thought my colleague would still be waiting for mi).. luckily she didn't, because i was terribly late!! i reached Brighton at 8:30am!!
i alighted and scanned around for my colleague, and of course, she was no longer there lo.. then, i panicked for the first time.. (not in my life la.. but in such situations) i panicked not because I'm lost, but I'm really late!! omg!! i can't take a cab cos i have no cash with mi.. i cant get a direct bus to the preschool, cos there is none nearby.. so my only choice is to take the train to the last station which is 15 mins away from Brighton.. so i waited and took the train which arrives shortly after.. haiz.. what a day man!! then i took a direct bus to the preschool lo, which was already 9:30am then.. i'm supposed to reach one hour ago.. yet.. siao lo..
I hope everybody had enjoyed their very 1st day of the new month, its been a long time since i last update my blog.. so my resolution for the month of August is to, make sure i update my blog everyday!! *cross my fingers* heee..
hmm.. i had an adventurous day today.. because i have a placement every Wednesday (which is far far far away from my house).. so here i go..
i'm supposed to catch the train at Adelaide railway station at 7:26am, which will bring mi to Brighton railway station where i will meet my colleague who will fetch mi to the preschool. who knows, i miss the train!! damn it!! missing the train would mean that i will be late for the placement!! worse still, i don't have my colleague's phone number and i can't contact anyone at all, not even the preschool!! jit bai really si liao.. (more to come..)
so i have to wait for the 7:54am train lo.. then, it was delayed!! wa lao!! die lo.. really die lo.. ok.. so the train was delayed for 5 mins.. i boarded the train and sat through the journey until Brighton railway station.. (i thought my colleague would still be waiting for mi).. luckily she didn't, because i was terribly late!! i reached Brighton at 8:30am!!
i alighted and scanned around for my colleague, and of course, she was no longer there lo.. then, i panicked for the first time.. (not in my life la.. but in such situations) i panicked not because I'm lost, but I'm really late!! omg!! i can't take a cab cos i have no cash with mi.. i cant get a direct bus to the preschool, cos there is none nearby.. so my only choice is to take the train to the last station which is 15 mins away from Brighton.. so i waited and took the train which arrives shortly after.. haiz.. what a day man!! then i took a direct bus to the preschool lo, which was already 9:30am then.. i'm supposed to reach one hour ago.. yet.. siao lo..
Friday, July 20, 2007
Holiday in Singapore!!
heyhey!! 3 mths since my last post huh.. haha.. been lazy and slacking in Singapore during my 1 mth's winter break!! anyway.. dun think anyone will read my blog.. unless i'm voted the eighth most disgusting bloggers in the Bloggers' world!! haha!!
I'm going back to Adelaide tmr le.. feeling kinda sad because I dun feel like studying, but kinda happy because I can meet my uni frens for a coffee break soon!! mixture of feelings la..
haiz.. I'm really lazy to continue typing leh.. I want to drive out leh.. where is the car!?!? I'm going back tmr, yet I haven't drive..
I'm going back to Adelaide tmr le.. feeling kinda sad because I dun feel like studying, but kinda happy because I can meet my uni frens for a coffee break soon!! mixture of feelings la..
haiz.. I'm really lazy to continue typing leh.. I want to drive out leh.. where is the car!?!? I'm going back tmr, yet I haven't drive..
Friday, April 13, 2007
A Day at Buddha Bar
sorry for being late in posting my blog for the past few days.. was too lazy to type and tired too.. ok.. shall start from the day i had KTV with my frens..
talking about that day.. i am a little pissed off with one of the people in the group.. that person is not my 死党s.. that person is jus a normal friend of mine.. i have never seen this kind of people before, u know.. "niao ga chu chap" (meaning very stingy) don't want to order drinks when singing in the KTV, yet still drink other people's drinks.. don't know how to sing a song, yet still hold on to the microphone.. don't want to listen to/ sing a particular song, simply delete the song (of cos kena scolded by me la!!) so rude!! Pls lo!! come out celebrate with us, be a little generous la!!
i promise, next time i WILL NOT include you in our outings anymore!!! I am still angry at the thought of it!!
but still, that day was heaps of fun!! cos my housemate works in that ktv lounge, so we have discounts off.. haha.. sisters!! we shall go there again ok?? jus the few of us!! haha..
den on 11 apr, we had a surprise bday party for Yeewhei, one of the sisters.. haha.. we went to her place at 12 midnight to celebrate her bday, which is on 12 apr!! haha.. of cos this was not my idea.. it was Chiangwei's.. ya.. this made us so tired after that.. cos we hav to go for gym in the evening, den we hav to go home to pack our bags for sleepover.. den, we hav to return to the school to meet up again.. so that we can plan the surprise later at night.. tired leh.. haha. but incredibly fun!!
so we sneaked into the hostel (with the help of another friend, Michelle.. thank alots!!) we went to yeewhei's level and waited til 12 midnight.. we lit the sparkler, knocked on her door, and surprised her!! but.. she was clever, she suspected us alrd.. cos we were not online all day!! haha. clever Yeewhei!!
but still we played and went to Coles for grocery shopping at 1am!! haha.. to shop for my toothbrush.. haha.. adventurous leh!! i love it!! walking on the empty street.. lucky it was not cold that night!! haha!!
so we spent the night chatting and finally turning in at ard 4am.. haha.. den we went home the next morning lo.. and sleep again.. hoho..
talking about that day.. i am a little pissed off with one of the people in the group.. that person is not my 死党s.. that person is jus a normal friend of mine.. i have never seen this kind of people before, u know.. "niao ga chu chap" (meaning very stingy) don't want to order drinks when singing in the KTV, yet still drink other people's drinks.. don't know how to sing a song, yet still hold on to the microphone.. don't want to listen to/ sing a particular song, simply delete the song (of cos kena scolded by me la!!) so rude!! Pls lo!! come out celebrate with us, be a little generous la!!
i promise, next time i WILL NOT include you in our outings anymore!!! I am still angry at the thought of it!!
but still, that day was heaps of fun!! cos my housemate works in that ktv lounge, so we have discounts off.. haha.. sisters!! we shall go there again ok?? jus the few of us!! haha..
den on 11 apr, we had a surprise bday party for Yeewhei, one of the sisters.. haha.. we went to her place at 12 midnight to celebrate her bday, which is on 12 apr!! haha.. of cos this was not my idea.. it was Chiangwei's.. ya.. this made us so tired after that.. cos we hav to go for gym in the evening, den we hav to go home to pack our bags for sleepover.. den, we hav to return to the school to meet up again.. so that we can plan the surprise later at night.. tired leh.. haha. but incredibly fun!!
so we sneaked into the hostel (with the help of another friend, Michelle.. thank alots!!) we went to yeewhei's level and waited til 12 midnight.. we lit the sparkler, knocked on her door, and surprised her!! but.. she was clever, she suspected us alrd.. cos we were not online all day!! haha. clever Yeewhei!!
but still we played and went to Coles for grocery shopping at 1am!! haha.. to shop for my toothbrush.. haha.. adventurous leh!! i love it!! walking on the empty street.. lucky it was not cold that night!! haha!!
so we spent the night chatting and finally turning in at ard 4am.. haha.. den we went home the next morning lo.. and sleep again.. hoho..
Sunday, April 8, 2007
A Day at Harbour Town
wahaha.. went shopping with my 死党s at Harbour Town.. shops open at 11am and we were already waiting outside our fav shop at 10:50am.. haha!! it was fun to see the expression of anticipation on our faces..
we shopped for exactly 2 hrs non-stop in that particular shop.. can u believe it?!?! haha.. of cos, we got great deals.. imagine a black, low-cut dress for only $9.95!! haha.. that's my deal.. i got that!! haha.. but i dunno when i wil have the chance to wear lo.. ermm.. let mi see ah.. *ponder* i really dunno when!! haha...
since i got things for myself, i will definitely get things for my family.. don't u remember? FAMILY!! haha.. so i got a pair of slippers for my brother (frog's feet.. lol) and a shirt for my dad.. cant find anything for my mum.. but since she's gg to explore Tibet in July, i shall get sunscreen lotion and moisturiser for her.. she needs it.. at least they are from Australia.. FAMILY!! haha.. yes.. im emphasizing on FAMILY.. haha..
suddenly feel guilty for getting that pair of slippers for my brother.. he sure will scream and criticise my taste.. but im emphasizing on uniqueness.. Gor.. if u r reading this (which i noe u wun, cos i nv giv u this URL), im emphasizing on UNIQUENESS!! hee.. anyway, u wear le, ppl cant see much of the design.. jus be natural lo.. cos im talking abt UNIQUENESS!!
ok la.. i've talked enuff, shall continue tmr.. got more things to write tmr.. cos im gg to sing KTV tmr!! haha.. @ Buddha Bar (as translated into "Murtabak" by one of my frens.. lol)
we shopped for exactly 2 hrs non-stop in that particular shop.. can u believe it?!?! haha.. of cos, we got great deals.. imagine a black, low-cut dress for only $9.95!! haha.. that's my deal.. i got that!! haha.. but i dunno when i wil have the chance to wear lo.. ermm.. let mi see ah.. *ponder* i really dunno when!! haha...
since i got things for myself, i will definitely get things for my family.. don't u remember? FAMILY!! haha.. so i got a pair of slippers for my brother (frog's feet.. lol) and a shirt for my dad.. cant find anything for my mum.. but since she's gg to explore Tibet in July, i shall get sunscreen lotion and moisturiser for her.. she needs it.. at least they are from Australia.. FAMILY!! haha.. yes.. im emphasizing on FAMILY.. haha..
suddenly feel guilty for getting that pair of slippers for my brother.. he sure will scream and criticise my taste.. but im emphasizing on uniqueness.. Gor.. if u r reading this (which i noe u wun, cos i nv giv u this URL), im emphasizing on UNIQUENESS!! hee.. anyway, u wear le, ppl cant see much of the design.. jus be natural lo.. cos im talking abt UNIQUENESS!!
ok la.. i've talked enuff, shall continue tmr.. got more things to write tmr.. cos im gg to sing KTV tmr!! haha.. @ Buddha Bar (as translated into "Murtabak" by one of my frens.. lol)
Saturday, April 7, 2007
Holidays at home..
hmm... my 2 weeks holidays have started.. slept for a whole day yesterday.. had steamboat at my fren's place on Thursday.. and my fren says my face is getting rounder and rounder nw.. shit la.. hate it lo.. took so much effort to slim down and nw i'm fat again.. 真不知道该怎么办。。
my face is always round, so i always got fats in my cheeks.. so ugly.. shit lo.. arrgh..
jus got back my results.. i got a C again.. for my EO 200A.. hai.. i should have known it.. but i will try harder.. cos i got a D for my Sociology essay!! though its an easy one, but i'm spurred by the grade.. haha.. i aim to increase my GPA this yr.. from 4.9 to 6.. (can i make it??) hope so la..
ok la.. i jus ran for 15 mins outside my hse.. from my hse to the park and return.. shiok. gonna try tmr again.. if i have the time.. shall end here..
got some words to tell my family.. FAMILY!! and brother too la.. hee..
my face is always round, so i always got fats in my cheeks.. so ugly.. shit lo.. arrgh..
jus got back my results.. i got a C again.. for my EO 200A.. hai.. i should have known it.. but i will try harder.. cos i got a D for my Sociology essay!! though its an easy one, but i'm spurred by the grade.. haha.. i aim to increase my GPA this yr.. from 4.9 to 6.. (can i make it??) hope so la..
ok la.. i jus ran for 15 mins outside my hse.. from my hse to the park and return.. shiok. gonna try tmr again.. if i have the time.. shall end here..
got some words to tell my family.. FAMILY!! and brother too la.. hee..
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